I run hot or I run cold. Tears stream down my face because my emotions are too strong to hold inside. Overflowing as I go from one extreme to the other. Pushing people away or holding on too tight. I turn my emotions inward because I’m afraid to hurt you. But I still do… I… Continue reading A powerful poem about Borderline Personality Disorder + Me
I wrote this post 'Understanding BPD' a few year ago. It's an insight into what mental health means for me. Nobody sees the nitty gritty I talk about here. As time goes on, my circumstances have changed yet the struggle is still real. It's been 8 years since my diagnosis. Over time I have learnt to… Continue reading World mental health day 2017 – Understanding BPD
Recently I have been talking about my concerns over the way I am perceived, the impact my mental health has in my life and how it often leads to being misunderstood and I become very upset and distressed. Living with an anxiety disorder & a personality disorder is tricky business and has to be approached… Continue reading Control Freak? OR Survivor? Perceive me as you will.
I have been speaking to my Psychologist today and we got onto the fact that I am good at helping others in the same situation as me, yet I find it difficult to help myself. We spoke about all the things I have done in the past and I realised that my blog was something that was always useful and helped me to understand how I’m feeling.
I had forgotten all the work I had previously done and the things I have wrote about, I decided to take a look back on what my solutions were in the pas, because when I think about it, I am just dealing with the same feelings time and time again but just in a different situations and I need to draw on my past experiences and actions to help myself. I need to practise what I preach!
My aim this week is to care about myself how I would care for others. I already have the answers, I just need to believe in myself and remind myself I do know what to do. I always need a solution you see, I’m a problem solver so If I have an issue the anxiety will take over until I have worked out how to act to solve it.
The first post I have come across on my recap of the things I have learnt and coping strategies I have previously used is this one, It takes about toxic people and naysayers, which are a real trigger to me and we have spent hours talking about this in my appointments and how certain people affect my life and my intense mood swings so often and how I allow it. I am trying to let go of these people, and learn how to better deal with them.
In my case, it comes down to people close to me, so I just need to look at them differently, change the way I see our relationships and each of our our parts in it. I need to believe in myself more, and remind myself that others are not always right, I’m a strong, independent 28 year old woman, I know my personality and emotions better than anyone. I can make my own decisions based on my life goals and how I want to live it and I no longer need anyone’s approval, I especially need to let go of those that have a negative impact on my life and my mood.
This was a great read and has put things in some perspective for me tonight…
I stumbled across this fantastic blog post whilst looking into the effects that negative people can have in your life, I am going through one hell of a roller coaster at the minute and the time has come to leave behind negative people and ignore negative comments in order to carry on reaching for my dreams that had been forgotten and put aside whilst I was on a downward spiral and close to losing myself and being led down the same path as my ‘friends’. There’s a favourite quote of mine its ‘Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self esteem, just be sure you are not just, in fact, surrounded by assholes’ This post talks about those people and how to deal with them. I hope it helps you as much as it did me.
‘Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self-esteem, first make sure you are not, in fact, just…
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Today is World Mental Health Day, his year's theme set by the World Federation for Mental Health is psychological first aid and the support people can provide to those in distress. It's also a difficult time of year for me. This time 4 years ago I had just faced that dreaded court case and had been on… Continue reading World Mental Health Day 2016 & Me.
Unanswered text messages. Declined invites. Missed calls. When you live with anxiety, sometimes little aspects of friendship can be hard. But that doesn’t mean people with anxiety can’t maintain friendships. And it doesn’t mean people with anxiety don’t care about their friends. Read more at https://themighty.com/2015/11/things-people-with-anxiety-want-their-friends-to-know/
Today is World Bipolar Day . World BipolarDay will be celebrated each year on March 30th, the birthday of Vincent Van Gogh, who was posthumously diagnosed as probably having bipolar disorder.
The vision of World Bipolar Day is to bring world awareness to bipolar disorders and eliminate social stigma. Through international collaboration, the goal of World Bipolar Day is to educate the world population about bipolar disorders that will educate and help improve sensitivity toward the illness.
As you may know I suffer from Borderline Personality Disorder. The Similarities between BPD & Bipolar mean that they can often be confused with each other.
In this post I look into the differences between the two disorders.
Further to my recent post Misconceptions of BPD I would like to elaborate on another common view people have on the illness, it IS NOT Bi-Polar, there is a difference, now its easy to understand why people connect the two because there are similarities, in this post I would just like to establish how the two differ for those of you who have difficulty understanding.
For one thing, they’re technically different types of disorders. Bipolar disorder is a mood disorder, whereas BPD is a personality disorder
BPD & Bi-Polar both feature unstable moods.
Bipolar disorder: The person can go from depression, “the lowest of lows,” to mania, “the highest of highs,” and back again. In mania, the person could “take on the world.” They feel great, they don’t feel a need for sleep, and their activity level could wear out a three year old. (Hypomania is similar to mania, but less…
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If you are struggling to come up with the best and most cost-effective Valentines gifts, here is your saviour.
Give the gift of time for free! With us all tightening our belts and with only a few days left to think of a great present that your other half deserves, it is likely that you’ve started worrying about what you’re going to do?!
When it comes to the perfect gifts is your mind totally blank? Why not give a gift with a difference? A Gift of Time!
Why not give your Partner a break whilst you do all the Dirty Work! You could Do the Washing, Clean the House..Fix that tap that has been dripping for months, Run her a relaxing bath or clean his car!..
Or Why Not get creative and make a Chore Cheque Book? they make a wonderful gift for that special person in your life. Create them by hand or use print some Chore…
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This post is a follow-up of My Historical Abuse and My Decision To Report It. Wrote in 2012. I write this now because it's been over 2 years since the court trial ended. I have needed this time to accept it and try to find some closure. My life has moved on in leaps and… Continue reading The Outcome: The Report Of Historical Abuse
As I wrote just days ago on this blog, I felt so rock-bottom. I was in despair and horribly confused. I've had many episodes like that, some much worse and I accept my condition and the way it makes me feel. I know that these things will happen from time to time but thankfully, it happens… Continue reading How Do You Know When You Are Coming Out Of An Episode?