New year, is an opportunity to reflect on your past 12 months and set some goals for the next, which can only be a positive thing!
2016 has been a life changing one for me. I’m stronger in every way and have accomplished so much and of course it didn’t without its BPD and GAD drama 
💪I’ve been working hard with my therapy and psychology, my wounds are healing and regardless of the chaos I’m in a the best place I can be. I feel safe, comfortable and I’m nowhere near the end of my recovery, but I’ll keep working through it.
One of the most important things was I wanted to share something that I still can’t quite believe myself…..
Sometimes I remember my past, the historical abuse, the domestic violence, the mental health torture and instead of being crippled by them I think… Oh My God, I haven’t thought about that for days! Those awful thoughts haven’t even crossed my mind for longer than a day.
It may seem like a small thing, but it’s my biggest personal achievement this year I even went longer than a week without feeling that horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach. I think I have found some closure after 28 years of hell. I’m beginning to see my strengths and use them to help me through the tough times, hearing my own voice and not depended on people as much as I thought I needed to.
I’m definitely not the same person I was at the start of this year. I’m devoting the next year to loving myself more, trying not to give in to my self-doubt, travelling more and exploring, appreciating the amazing man in my life and focusing on my little girl growing up 
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Happy New Year from Bridget Of The North
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My name is Nik AKA Bridget of the North. I am 28 years old and I currently live in Newcastle upon Tyne (Home town of Ant & Dec, The Tyne Bridge & Geordie Shore) I have been living here six years now and I LOVE it! I’m originally from Middlesbrough (Home town of Chubby Brown, Smoggies & Parmesans) I moved here to create a new life for myself and my daughter, started a business, got a flat and 8 years later Im still here, living my own twisted dream.
I decided to create this blog when I was at a crossroads in my life, trying to understand myself, my mental health and the world around me. I was diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder 6 years ago and through years of therapy I have learnt to get a handle on my emotions (most of the time) and I am in recovery. Being ‘on the borderline’ changes my everyday life and the way I live it as opposed to those without the disorder.
As you will see throughout the blog, I have shared (and will continue to do so) with you some of my stories and findings on my journey to understand, also you will see the pro’s of BPD as well as the cons…So welcome to the world of Borderline Personality Disorders.
I’ve always been broad minded and I’m not one to follow the crowd, I have always been true to myself. So I will cover a wide range of topics, whatever I’m interested in at the time or whatever relates to my present happenings in life.
Although this blogs main focus is on my findings and my journey, its also about me letting my inner self out and fulfilling my destiny.
Being a single mother (or a married mother in fact) is a full time job alone, its hard to keep up with the latest trends & live the glamorous life we all dream of.
I’m not however, your average Geordie shore house mate…I’m far from it in fact. I like the regular girly things but can be mostly found in jogging bottoms and a scruffy ponytail when I’m at home, I could do with losing a few pounds, hardly ever go to the gym, even though I insist I will start getting the most out of the £42 a month Gym Membership! I spend far more than I earn, I go streaky if I apply fake tan (So I don’t bother), I have been known to glue my lips together with nail glue and cannot live without extensions as my hair hasn’t grown a cm in years. I can easily create an awkward moment and have a habit of putting my foot in it.
So as you’ll see I’m more of a Bridget Jones type so be sure to keep stopping by to keep track of my latest adventures!
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