I run hot or I run cold. Tears stream down my face because my emotions are too strong to hold inside. Overflowing as I go from one extreme to the other. Pushing people away or holding on too tight. I turn my emotions inward because I’m afraid to hurt you. But I still do… I… Continue reading A powerful poem about Borderline Personality Disorder + Me
So Its been a while since I have written anything, my life has become a crazy world of toddler right now! My baby is nearly 1 and the last year has been the most amazing, wonderful year of my life. So much has changed. Mentally I am stronger than ever before, I've gone longer without… Continue reading There Is Light At The End Of That BPD Tunnel… Where Am I Now? My Road To Recovery
I wrote this post 'Understanding BPD' a few year ago. It's an insight into what mental health means for me. Nobody sees the nitty gritty I talk about here. As time goes on, my circumstances have changed yet the struggle is still real. It's been 8 years since my diagnosis. Over time I have learnt to… Continue reading World mental health day 2017 – Understanding BPD
So we all know I like things to be just right! and after the worst year of my entire life I want the birth of my baby to be perfect, as do all expectant parents. I was advised to set out some ground rules for my family and friends. So they know exactly what I… Continue reading My After Birth Rules For Visitors Of Our New Baby
Recently I have been talking about my concerns over the way I am perceived, the impact my mental health has in my life and how it often leads to being misunderstood and I become very upset and distressed. Living with an anxiety disorder & a personality disorder is tricky business and has to be approached… Continue reading Control Freak? OR Survivor? Perceive me as you will.
I wish I'd have learnt this sooner. Seems, I have had misplaced loyalties. I have been having issues with my relationships with other, some are unhealthy or toxic relationships, and some just need more boundaries. I'm trying to work out the best way to move forward with my life, cut out the negative and surround… Continue reading You have every right not to tolerate people that have treated you badly or that have made you doubt your self worth.
Last year I went through lots of tests and procedures in hospital, myself and my partner were then referred to a fertility clinic because I was told I had problems with my Fallopian tubes, because they were badly damaged and I had some other problems that were causing me a lot of pain. At one… Continue reading Pregnancy and BPD. It’s Not All Shits And Giggles (Prenatal Psychosis)